I recently found out

that a lot of my friends hate each other?

Basically, someone will leave the room or be absent or something, and immediately everyone starts talking about how much they can't stand them. It's not like this hasn't happened before - I witnessed it a lot near the end of the year last year, and the first time this ever happened was when I realized that not everyone on Chatalia were super best friends. Still, it really bothers me?

So someone's dying for attention, or someone complains a lot, or brags a lot, or gets angry too much; I never thought of it as a big deal! Everyone I know does every one of those things in some moderation, and so do I!  It really annoys the crap right out of me when I hear "bitch" and "annoying" tossed around not seconds after that person leaves the vicinity.

It also gets me paranoid - more so than high school has already made me. I mean, if my friends consistently talk about each other behind their backs, that could easily and certainly mean they talk about me, too. The only time this year I've had notice of people mentioning me behind my back was when members of my flute section said I played too quietly. But besides that, if my friends are already good at keeping their gossip a secret from the victims, I could easily be involved.

I've also thought about the possibility that I'm thinking too hard about this. I got to thinking, everyone has their peeves with people, and quirks that they hate. Even with this in place though, I still don't think it's right or worth listening too. Ever.

I usually call them out on this, answering with "woah!"s or "stop that!"s every time I see this going on (the word "bitch" is like nails on a chalkboard to me. And they say it all the time. bitch bitch bitch bitch).

And who wants someone like me sitting them down and talking this out with them?
I need to think on this some more.